Tuesday, May 11, 2010

It's Not Easy Being You

I am grateful for the comfort and time that modern conveniences afford me. I am fortunate to have been born at the birth of the technological era. I have had the benefit of being familiar with both eight track tapes and phones smaller than an adult thumb. But best of all I have the reassurance of knowing my own children will likely never know what it feels to go without food or shelter. In short, we live in a country that has evolved to serve the needs of everyone, young and old, affluent and destitute. We have more free time than ever before in history.

My grandmother, a sturdy woman for whom I attribute my assertive fortitude, raised seven children, kept a home and cared for many pets. She did not have the luxury of the microwave oven, a deep freeze, or an electric coffee pot to set on timed brew to jump start her day. She worked from morning until night. She toiled because she not only loved those for whom she sacrificed time and attention to self but because it was a given. Someone had to put in the work or there would be no canned pears for winter and no sheets to sleep on.

Mothers (parents) of small children fifty years ago were, by today's standards, overworked and under appreciated. But they gave of themselves because they understood the importance of investing time in their family, and more importantly, in their children.

I often think about the life my grandmother lead. These sentiments come to me when I look around me and see the state of the world of parenting in 2010. Not only are most children less behaved than in the parenting days of my grandmother, but parents themselves seem less involved; perhaps there is a correlation. When comparing the amount of parental time a child was afforded in 1950 to those of today it is no surprise why our children are in the predicament they are.

If I had a dime for every day that a child was dropped off at my door in the morning so a parent could skip work for "me" time I would be rich beyond words. It amazes me how selfish we have become with regard to our time. We assume that the concerns of the self are more important than those of our children. What we fail to realize is that our children are, and should be, part of the self - not a separate entity spending ten hours in daycare while a parent takes a personal day on the beach.

We seem to have a sense of time entitlement today. We assume that we are all that matters; that we deserve what has been dubbed "me" time. And the fact that we have, as a society, coined a term for such entitled time sparks a pang of outrage in my head and heart. Perhaps I am judgemental and entirely wrong but in my opinion my children ARE me. And therefore, "me" time includes those things most important in the world to me - my children. I could not imagine deliberately imposing my children on another and taking a day off for myself when in the position of being forced to frequently spend fifty plus hours away from them. My heart breaks at the mere thought of such a idea. And I suspect, the hearts of my children would suffer a painful scar as well. Children know. Children are perceptive.

The next time one of the self-proclaimed "full time mommies" complain to me that they are overwhelmed because they worked a full seven hours, took a one hour lunch break in solitude, enjoyed the silence of a half hour commute and need a "me" day I welcome them to walk a day in my shoes. I am more a full time mommy than they ever will be - to not only my children but their children as well. I don't begrudge them their need to work. But please, do not complain about how many hours you are burdened with real, genuine parenting. In fact, don't take up my offer to walk a day in my shoes. Instead, put on some stockings, and some practical footwear and walk a mile in my grandmother's shoes. SHE needed me time.

"Full time mommies"....... yes, I know it's not easy being you. But life isn't easy. And being a child who sat in daycare all day while mommy was suntanning at the beach is the least easy of all. Now go and enjoy your "me" time. No doubt you deserve it.




For concerns, advice or suggestions I welcome your email at judytrickett@yahoo.ca

13 comments:

  1. great post Judy!! Just what I needed after my second day of work OUTSIDE the home after doing daycare for 7 years :) I'm not complaining at all about needing me time, I am adjusting to this new lifestyle and so are my boys who are doing great so far! I am missing my daycare kids but I am not going to feel guilty about it, they are all in good hands of other seasoned providers, my days of childcare are for now, over. I think I enjoyed day two better than day one, and I hope that pattern continues. Keep on doing what you are doing!! I will still be here reading your posts and reminiscing about my ten plus combined years of daycare. I think what I'm realizing most is how grown up my sons really are and that I need this job right now or I will be suffering unbelievably when they leave the nest! And I know that is not for a few more years but time has a way of sneaking up on you so quietly and quickly!!! My seven yrs of childcare in this city flew by even though some days seemed endless! My kids are seven years older now, in another seven years, one will be gone and the youngest one will be well past driving age!!
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  2. Exactly!! When did parents stop enjoying their time with their children??? I've raised 4 children and I loved my time with them, with all 4 or 1 or 2 at a time, but I parented my kids and they knew how to behave and I could take them anywhere and be proud of them. I've had a Family Child Care for more than 20 years now and I can't believe how little time most parents actually put into teaching and guiding their little ones. It's typically leave them in daycare as long as they can,then take them home and plug them into the TV or video games until they crash and then we start all over the next day.
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  3. I assumed that when I became a parent, that my daughter would be paramount, and she is! I just couldn't help it! I fell in love with that little bundle of poop, spit up and general crankiness. I never once took a day for "me time" no matter how badly I convinced myself that I needed one. Like Judy said, kids are perceptive and in addition to that, they are much more likely to take mommy's need for some "me time" as a shortcoming in him/her. That's not a message that I would want to send my kiddo. I have families who take advantage of my hours and I know it, but my goal is to make sure that their kids never do!
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  4. Great post Judy, so TRUE! I am also guilty of wanting ME TIME.....when I started childcare (1yr ago) I was a little overwhelmed with having toddlers all week and then my 2 toddlers on the weekends. My husband does shift work so it felt like I never got a "break". I was trying to get "things" done on the weekends and my boys wouldn't co-operate which drove me crazy...SO I decided to fix the problem, NOT with a weekend babysitter BUT with REARRANGING MY PRIORITIES. I worked harder during the week (with cleaning, meal prep, etc) so that the weekends were FAMILY time, and it has paid off TREMENDOUSLY!! Don't get me wrong, I still love a day to myself but for the most part I LOVE being with my family!!
    Now we are planning our first family vacation to Sesame Place! YES, I am spending my vacation from toddlers WITH MY toddlers and I couldn't be happier!!
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  5. Amen!
    When I want "me" time, I spend time WITH MY KIDS, and without the 10 kids I care for 55 hours/week. My kids are older but even when they were little, ME time meant time with my family, not time all alone , because my family is my life
    Fingerprintshappen
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  6. I agree! You can have plenty of "me" time when they are grown. Trust me, it happens very quickly....
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  7. Well I guess it's all perspective. I can get my "me" time after my kids are in bed, asleep. Works for me and makes ME a happier person. Therefore my kids are happier as well. I freely admit I haven't dome "me" time during my child's daycare hours but I won't say it'll never happen.

    I've done both jobs and a happy mommy/daddy does help make a happier family.

    LMM
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  8. If you think working all day, including through my lunch hour, solitude or not, and commuting in rush hour traffic is a cake walk, you need to take your own advice. Walk in my shoes for a few days and then you'll quit your generalizing. You surprise me with your double standard. You are so angry if you think parents are judging you without walking in your shoes, but you go right ahead and make grand judgments and proclamations about working parents when you have not walked in theirs. I am so so so sick of mom's judging other mom's and making generalizations that are unfair. The women I know who work, like myself, treasure every minute that we have at home with our kids.
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  9. Anonymous above?

    Really? Hmmm...you must be the exception. Yep, sure, everyone is ALWYAS the exception. Because 90% of parent I know take vacation days and drop their kid in daycare. Oh, but that's okay, you're one of the "special" ones - just like everyone else proclaims they are.
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  10. WOW Judy, I have to agree with the above annon poster. You do sound bitter in the majority of your posts. Perhaps you need a day to figure out what you really enjoy because it sure doesn't sound like you enjoy childcare very much.
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  11. To anonymous ... Judy is not saying that she doesn't like being a childcare provider. She is simply stating a fact that many (not all, but many) parents today DO spend 50+ hours away from their children each week because they work. Then many (again, many, not all) will turn around and selfishly spend even MORE time away just to have "me" time alone. Who's the mommy and whose the "babysitter"? And what is the purpose of having children if you are going to work very hard at spending as little time as possible with them. For those who HAVE to work, but rush out of work as soon as they can and rush over the the daycare provider so they can scoop up their children and go have real time hugging, kissing, loving, playing with, teaching, etc their children - GREAT! You ARE the exception. But for every one who is like that, there are 10 who put their children last after job, self, and love life. I'm sure Judy LOVES what she does and as any great provider will tell you, our hearts break for the little broken hearts that just miss their mommies.
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  12. To anonymous who said that Judy should take a walk in your shoes for a day... how do you know she hasn't? I have. I started daycare when I was 33 and my first child was 5 weeks old. Before that, I worked in many, many fields, including over a decade in the corporate world. So, before you assume that a daycare provider doesn't know what it's like to be you, get the facts first. Thank you.
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  13. Theresa...you hit the nail on the head. I do feel sad for the kids. My heart breaks for them knowing they spend 50 hours a week in daycare and then are here again when mommy or daddy has the week off work and need "Me" time.
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